I hate it when this happens. I'm a bit of an insomniac, and sometimes even when I'm really tired I just can't sleep and my mind buzzes away and drives me mad. I try and combat it by forcing myself to get up early the next day and not having a nap or anything, then getting a good nights sleep the next night but this only seems to work for one night - the night after I'm wide awake again! Maybe it runs in the family, ever since my mum had her brain haemorrage last year she's not been able to sleep either, sometimes she's up til 6am before she finally gets off, and then she's knackered the next day, obviously. No fun.
The worst bit is that there's no-one up to chat to, on MSN or Facebook or whatever. Although actually maybe that's a good thing cos if I was able to chat maybe I'd never get to sleep! I think being on the laptop is the worst thing to do, cause the bright lights make your brain think it's day-time or something. Never mind.
Was just having a good think there about this job (I know, I can't stop going on about it, I really hope I'm not setting myself up for a big fall...) and how much fun it would be even just going for the interview. They mentioned in the job ad that they might ask you to do a presentation or something instead of an interview, so I was trying to work out how I'd feel about that. Surprisingly, though, I don't think I'd be too bothered. For some reason, whenever I have to do a presentation, or an oral exam, (like for Spanish at uni) or whatever, I feel so sick and nervous beforehand and I feel like my heart is going to beat right out my chest... but then as soon as they call my name and I'm up, all of that turns into nervous energy and I feel fine! So, hopefully that'd still be the same if I had to do anything like that for a job interview! I think maybe it helped doing that shite year as a teacher in Spain, too. I got pretty used to standing in front of a group of people just sitting there staring up at you and either full of expectation (yikes) or not giving a toss, and not bothering to try and pretend. So maybe I developed a thick skin, I dunno.
I really should stop psyching myself about this job, cause even though it seems like a slightly niche, feminist market, there's still bound to be hundreds of people who've applied, and I guess a lot of them will have more experience or something. Whatever, I can't do it, the negativity just isn't in me, I'm such a bloody optimist!!